Why are you unhappy?

[FANTASTIC WOUND]

I'm 24 years old and I have nothing to show for it. I haven't worked in close to four years and I survive off a questionable disability claim for depression. Each month when I get my benefits check, I go on a week long bender to not feel feelings, but it only makes things worse. Then I have no money for the rest of the month and mooch off my parents. I go to school, but can't commit myself enough to actually move forward. Four years of community college and I'm barely breaking into my second year of an English degree. My pseudo-girlfriend is fifteen years my senior. She's sweet, but it's a relationship of convenience. For me, it's a matter of not being alone. For her, I imagine she likes to idea of being able to score a young guy. I am still insanely in love with my ex, who I haven't spoken to in two years. I think about her non-stop. I have no hobbies, no prospects and no future.

[E.C]

I'm 24 years old and I have nothing to show for it. I haven't worked in close to four years and I survive off a questionable disability claim for depression. Each month when I get my benefits check, I go on a week long bender to not feel feelings, but it only makes things worse. Then I have no money for the rest of the month and mooch off my parents. I go to school, but can't commit myself enough to actually move forward. Four years of community college and I'm barely breaking into my second year of an English degree. My pseudo-girlfriend is fifteen years my senior. She's sweet, but it's a relationship of convenience. For me, it's a matter of not being alone. For her, I imagine she likes to idea of being able to score a young guy. I am still insanely in love with my ex, who I haven't spoken to in two years. I think about her non-stop. I have no hobbies, no prospects and no future.

holy fuck, this sounds almost exactly like my life.

[xdylanx]

this really cool vegan chick i was seeing broke it off with me last night. got a strong case of the skrammoz

"cool vegan chick"

You probably dodged a bullet there bro

[cutoffmyarms]

my ever dwindling social skills and overwhelming physical insecurities. let's cuddle.

I know those feels ;_; I'm extremely insecure about my body even though I have no reason to be, and I feel like I've lost any ability to meet new people or make new friends or even stay in touch with people in the past year or two. Meh. I'm kindaish fine with people I know. Just not new ones.

Also scared my parents will find out about my sexuality or my smoking habit and subsequently disown me and kick me out. Living with immigrant parents sucks.

Oh, and girls.

i'm over the top insecure about my body, it's weird, i go through pretty bad stages of agoraphobia too. like, i'm somewhere around 5'9" which always makes me feel fucky about my height, and i'm around 63kg and i feel fat as fuck for some reason. then there's individual aspects of my body that i just wish i could tear off. least i've got a nice peen.

cmhwak support group 2012 yeaaaaaaah

[Tamaki]

I just am naturally jaded with too much baggage. Every simple notion i seem to find comfort in turns out to be as vapid as the worthless scum who make my life a living hell. I also complain too much.

[retlawlliw]

Because today I got fired literally for smoking a cigarette in what is said to be an "undesignated area" for smoking, and it is a violation of city code to smoke there, though the area is not marked with a "no smoking" sign. I worked at a pool, and our patrons would go there and smoke all the time and it was never an issue. I am going to the Human Resources department tomorrow to see if I can get my job back, because there are NO signs anywhere at the pool that say "no smoking," and I was never told that it was a code violation.

To make matters worse, I don't know what I'm going to tell my parents when I have to tell them I got fired. I am 19 so its not like they can really do anything if they knew I was smoking, but I still don't want to have to deal with them yelling at me for smoking after I lost a job over it today.

Also, if I can't get that job back, I am pretty much going to have to move to Greensboro and find a job. I was originally not going to move there until the end of the summer so I would have enough money to pay my rent up there, but I might as well go a head and leave now. I don't want to have to leave my friends and family so suddenly. Also I finally met a girl that I have legitimate feelings for, which hasn't happened in a long time. I know I'm young and I will get over her but it would just really suck to have to leave so suddenly.



I know there are people out there who have it harder than I do right now, but it just sucks to loose a job for such an irrational fucking reason.

[itsmorelikeamessage]

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[CitizenOfUlysses]

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[untitled6]

I'm unhappy because I might've gotten herpes from a girl who gave me head for just a minute before I spent the rest of that night throwing up from the spins.

[McGoozenheimer]

because elliott smith is dead

I know of this unsettling feeling.